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/life

alone: with fiona
semi regular posting
from my life and yours
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yes?

life updated.

ate a lovely egg, onion, garlic, red pepper, hot mustard
breakfast sandwich with Itallian bakery bread
saw a car crash
dreamt of winning millions of dollars
took the LRT
the snow is melting
river is thawing
paid my rent
bought an unaffordable wireless imouse
went downtown and saw all the beautiful people
listened to a busker in the station
got 5 discs from the library
found out i can borrow many more (score)
again didnt give a shit about the NHL lockout
fiona is getting fixed (no not neutered)
under the lovely warrenty (going to west world)
going to buy a scribbler?
study metamorphic?
do my hydro assignment?
metamorphic lab?
chill out?
get drunk?


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its no need. we move too fast

day gain some length
as the sun makes its way back to the south-east to rise
rather than the south south-east sun rises we have gotten
i don't live in a shadow
for the entire day
now
mornings give me rise
day and night give me darkened
thoughts and dreams and song

it is dark at night
really dark


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substance in the head

everything is in my mind
everything is just thrown out
we can't all get along
but we sometimes try

with heads hanging down to the floor
the place where we left our mind
in some other world i will find
something more


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if you love me punch me in the face

cought in between a storm and a sea
alone feels so much better
when no one is around
can't understand me?

there are controls
and if you can't contain
i'll bring out the ephedrine
after an americano of cafeine
must i complain and describe what i've seen?

it's done, it's over
it never began
only a model within my head
played out like a Matlab program

it's done, it's over


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love timing

i learned today
the kings of convenience
are comming to canada

vancouver

i will be in red deer
for trad cup.
i am sad

very
sad.


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move. not mouve.

A battle.
I can (kind of) see the light
reach
reach a little further
then BAM!
the door slams
the light comes on
the computer crashes
life falls
but it is always comes up and at it again.

the rollercoaster i can't not go on
i am forced by it's mystery
for those highest times
however,
the climax does end
and the time comes as the coaster
plunges towards the earth only
being brought down by gravity
Euphoria.
The bottom eventually comes
the length of decent never known
but proportional to the intensity of it
The tiresome bottom at where
relatively
no one is happy
And then to make the long steady climb
back to the top

Well atleast i am climbing
and didnt fall of the track


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heard it here last

struggle hard
in the yard
as the tension gets beneath you
i've tried a thousand times

or maybe more
just to reach you
water drips
head trips
until it makes you
want to recleanse


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2:37am: will i see you again

sitting
waiting
wondering
wanting to sleep

standing
pacing
walking
wanting to sleep


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lost on a bus: january 2005

it is a strange reality
we all live in
my thoughts come out
in scribbles on a bus
only 30 hours to go, seams like forever
true the trucks, cars, busses,
show the total downfall
of this society
what happened to living in place
using what is infront of my face
but i need to leave
maybe this is why some can stay
look ahead and not to the side
some of us live on one track
one road one life
22 years in place
22 years
For me


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edmonton international airport: late august 2004

the air awaits
an airplanes wake
only selective eyes
peer down
a rock filled world
below
surely fucked
to the beyond
but still living on


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