it is damned if you dont
it is damned if you do

i sat here until i cried
my back was in ache
from being here all day

i ran
i ran
i ran
to no avail
did i get used.

i am bruised
i am sore
i have a dent on my side
it hurts makes me scream

i though out ambience
to hid the cracking of
my internal structure

i love doing the tasks
to comprehend the joy
through mathamatics and
colours

it is the most artistic
the most powerful and
beautiful processes
witout inspiration

i am getting old yes
but i can still do
what i was set out to do
and for that i cannot die

and on the day
when i can not perform a task
then i will contemplate this life
and wonder if i did try everything

i was able to do.

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